The liver mets issue got dismissed late last year, which was great. Early in January during a routine derm check, the intern thought he felt a lump. I told him I thought it had been there; doctor said to keep an eye on it. Which I did, and a few days later made an appointment to be seen by my surgeon. I was still thinking scar tissue and maybe a little lymphadema. The surgeon's PA thought so too, but ordered an U/S, which was negative (for what that's worth). So last Monday on a regular checkup with my onco, he said I really needed a CT, and told me another patient had passed the U/S but had a bad node clear down in his back.
I'm a pretty calm, living in the moment kind of guy. But I'm in a fairly important stage, career-wise, with a lot going on and more transitions coming up, and I just was a mess the rest of the week. Wasn't scared, but mad that I might need more biopsies or surgeries. The CT yesterday was a barium fueled delight. This morning, due to weather, there was a skeleton crew at MDA in radiology, but I did get a call from my onco's nurse at 1pm saying that everything was normal.
While I don't drop in here very often, I wanted to share. I'm IIIb since December 2008, when a bad node was pulled; a month later I had 22 more pulled and all has been roses ever since. I take 2K mg of curcumin a day, and go to a lot of checkups at MDA, but mostly don't think on cancer too much. That's why I was surprised at the force that it grabbed me with.
There's not a point to this posting, although I suppose it's always good to read about someone with no recurrances for 2+ years. I needed to write this out. My wife is very supportive, but ultimately much more scared than I am that this might kill me, so there are some places I can't go with her.
Well, we may be done freezing in h-town tomorrow, and I'm going to put down 3 yards of decomposed granite and try to forget what a mess I was... Cheers and prayers to all of us.