I've Called Hospice

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9/10/2010 3:38pm
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Hi Friends

Any stage 1 and 2's might want to run away right now......this is a bitch and the beast from hell has got a hold of me now and is not letting me go.

I'm checking in . I called Hospice last week, my sister came down, it will be 2 wks ago come this Sunday. Had more surgery to  my left arm, yep it was full of melanoma, had more brain mets, had WBR (3) stopped that after 3 times, burning pain on fire all through the night. CT Scans showing lower lunbar spine is full of melanoma, it spreads out like a horese tail and sends shooting pain down my leg, one tumor is on a eye nerve, I am now completely blind in my right eye  and 'em wearing an eye batch to stopped the double vision so I can see, I can't walk., I'm in a wheel chair &  walker, cant bath myself, blah, blah, blah...this is it. Today is my granddaughter 9th b-day so I wanted to live long enough to be here for that.  Hospice dropped the ball today w/pain meds and are getting their asses jammed....give me drugs NOW. I've asked my sister to posted when I'm your Warrior Angel. Ipi and others are a waste of time for me now cuz the beast is everywhere.

 

So I'm saying goodbye to all now, you have been more loving and a soruce of stregth for me more than you will ever know. For those of you who can...FIGHT ON & NEVER GIVE UP....I LOVE YOU...SEE YOU ON THE FLIP SIDE. LOVE, SHARON IN RENO, STAGE IV.....going down kicking and screaming with love and lots of DRUGS.

To Thy Own Self Be True & Move Fast When You "Know" You Have To!!

jag - (9/10/2010 - 4:21pm)

God Bless You Sharon.  Thank you for all that you have contributed here.  May you have comfort and the hospice be on their toes to make sure you don't run low on pain meds.  You have always been a kind and suppportive member here, please don't feel uncomfortable posting on your way.  We are still here to help and stick by you.

John

Insert Generic Inspirational Motto Here

ValinMtl - (9/10/2010 - 4:35pm)

Sharon, I'm writing through my tears.  You are such a special person and I pray if it is your time to move on that it will be with as little pain as possible.  You have always been one of the first to offer words of kindness and advice, I will always treasured your wonderful positive attitude.  In my prayers and thoughts during this very difficult time Brave Warrior,  Val xx

Live Laugh Love
Nothing is worth more than this day!

Lori C - (9/10/2010 - 4:37pm)

Oh Sharon - I cannot tell you how much your words have meant to me, how encouraged you have always made me feel and hopeful.  I hate this disease for what it is doing to you and cannot stop praying for a miracle for you.  I will not stop thinking of you, and your enormous kindness to me.

I am devastated to read this -.  I wish you pain free peace.

IrishBama - (9/10/2010 - 4:40pm)

Sharon,

You have had such an impact on so many people during your own personal battle against this *&$%#$%* disease.  Your compassion and sense of humor have been a real source of comfort.  

I'm so glad you were able to celebrate your granddaughter's birthday and leave her with some very special memories.

I pray that your transition will be comfortable and pain free.  You deserve nothing less.

Please know that you will not be forgotten by your family here.

My very best to you.  I know you'll be the brightest star in the sky!

 

Bless you Sharon. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Love,

Jerry from Cape Cod

It's about kickin' Melanoma's butt!

"Meh. Get on with it. Do not feed rabid monkeys. To fear is one thing. To let fear grab you by the tail and swing you around is another." in memory of NicOz

Bonnie Lea - (9/10/2010 - 4:58pm)

Dear Sharon:  

 

May God bless you and keep you safe.  I have always enjoyed your input here, it was like you were always there willing and able to answer questions.

I am at a loss for words...somehow words don't cut it.  Melanoma sucks I think maybe even more so than any other disease in my opinion.

Be at peace.

Bonnie Lea

Just Keep on Hanging In

Jackie W - (9/10/2010 - 5:09pm)

Words cannot express how sad I feel from reading your post.   You have been such an asset  to this board and such a courageous fighter.  God bless you and keep you pain free.

 

Jackie W

Sherron - (9/10/2010 - 5:12pm)

Oh, Sharon,  I too, have tears streaming down my cheeks.  I am so sorry.  You have fought so hard, and encouraged US ALL so much.  I hate this beast with all my heart.  My prayer for you is that you have no pain, that you have your loved ones very close to you, and that your journey will be easy... AND may you soar high in the sky with all the Angels knowing you are an inspiration to all of us who are still fight this fight.  Keep those pain meds coming.   You are true warrior.

Take Care,

Sherron, wife to Jim

dian in spokane - (9/10/2010 - 5:41pm)

Sharon, I know you know we are all reading through our tears, as you have done often, I am sure, for those of our MPIP family who have gone before you.I hope you are pain free and have a peaceful time with your family during the rest of your time.

You've meant so much to all of us.

 

dian

Vermont_Donna - (9/10/2010 - 6:11pm)

Dear Sharon,

   What a BRAVE and STRONG woman!! We are blessed to have your presence with us, yesterday, today and tomorrow, always in our hearts will you be.

 With sorrow and a heavy heart,

Love Vermont_Donna

jim Breitfeller - (9/10/2010 - 6:19pm)

Sharon in Reno,

 I usually don't post too often, but I want you to know  you have left a Permanent on me as a person. You have taught us all here at MPIP, how to love and care for our fellow human beings. You are and will always be a pillar of this community and we will miss you dearly. I hope to see you on the other side.

Please keep a watchful eye on use.

 

Sincerely,

Jim Breitfeller

Melanoma Missionary

I will run to you

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand, it comforts me
From the ends of the Earth to the depth of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
'Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

 

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Fen - (9/10/2010 - 6:46pm)

Oh Sharon, you are such an amazing person and have touched so many lives.  I hope you can feel all the love and gratitude pouring from the board.   Fen

babybluiz - (9/10/2010 - 7:13pm)

Sharon,

I am so sorry to hear this news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I hope they are able to keep your pain under control and keep you comfortable and that you are able to find peace. Thank you for all your insight, I wish I was able to get to know you better. Just know your memory will never be forgotten. Take care Sharon

Lots of love and tears

Laura

KellieSue - (9/10/2010 - 8:03pm)

I'm so sorry. I was so sad to see this post. You have given so much to this board in the years that I've been here.

You are so strong!

 

Kellie, Stage IV

Cancer Sucks. I'm so not done kicking cancers ass!
I have a lot of life left to live

Dear Sharon

you will be one of those people who i will never forget, your comforting words and support and absolute courage that you display will be forever in my mind. God loves you and so do i

James

washoegal - (9/10/2010 - 8:40pm)

Sharon,

Please know that you have touch so many lives and are dearly loved.  You are one of those rare folks that have made this earth a little better for her presence.  Thank-you for sharing you knowledge and your journey.

 

Love,

Mary.

Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is a part of life, getting back up is living.

lhaley - (9/10/2010 - 9:00pm)

Sharon,

OMG I am so sorry you are going through this. You have had such a positive impact on all of us on this board.

Love and Peace, may you be out of pain.

Linda

MichaelFL - (9/10/2010 - 9:11pm)

I I am stage one and though it saddens me greatly, I would never run away.

My very best to you and your family during this difficult time. Thank you for allowing your sister to post, and happy birthday to your granddaughter. Glad you made it! I knew you would though as I do not think I have ever seen anyone with as much fire and spunk on this board as you!

Much love,gratitude and respect to you personally as well. Many, many thanks to you for everything you have done to help others on this board while going through your own personal hell yourself. What you have done here speaks volumes as to your character. It was an honor to read many of your posts. They were humorous, yet sincere and determined.

Sweet dreams to you now. May you finally take joy in knowing you will be free of the beast soon.

See you on the flip side one day-I'll look you up! 

Enjoy your new wings. Fly high and free!

Michael

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King - (9/10/2010 - 9:22pm)

Sharon,

 

You have contributed so much as a member of the MPIP family.  This post sums it up...thinking of us now to say your good-bye.   Praying for peace and comfort for you and your family.  Words can not express the sadness that I (and I know so many others ) are feeling.

 

You'll be greatly missed.

 

Stay Strong

King

Stage IV 7/05 Liver mets

debbieVA - (9/10/2010 - 9:31pm)

Hello Sharon....

I don't come to the board very often anymore...so glad i peeked in tonight.  I am so sorry to hear you are in pain.  I am a firm believer in being able to call the shots on how/what we want for the end of our lives.  NONE of us get out of this alive....we are all here on Temporary Work Visas.  Coming into this world is a beautiful thing...Going out should be also.   I wish you peace...I thank you for all the time you took to help and encourage so many on this board, giving freely of yourself.  

So many times over the past 3 years, our MPIP friends have passed...some never to be heard from again...and it always made me so sad, that I never got the chance to wish them Godspeed.  

 

May the road rise to meet you.

May the wind be always at your back.

May the sun shine warm upon your face, 

the rain fall soft upon your fields, and 

until we meet again, 

May God hold you in the palm of HIS hand. 

 

Peace be with you my friend, Godspeed....

 

Debbie Hennessy Stage 4 NED

Chesapeake, Virginia

Bless you Sharon.  Love and prayers going out for you.

 

Lauren (mom to Jenna)

Nancy - (9/10/2010 - 9:46pm)

Saying good-bye to an old friend hurts like hell.....

LizzM - (9/10/2010 - 10:08pm)

Godspeed, Sharon. You are one heck of a classy lady and an awesome warrior. We have all been blessed to have you as a part of our lives.

Peace to you ~ Liz

Cynthia C - (9/10/2010 - 10:28pm)

Oh Sharon, you have blessed more lives than you know. Thank you for sharing your life with us. Peace be with you.

With love,

Cynthia Crawshaw

Linda/Kentucky - (9/10/2010 - 10:29pm)

I can't even beging to tell you how I'm feeling right now after reading your post.  What a courageous,warrior you have been.  I pray you will find peace and painfree days throughout the rest of this dark road we are all on.  You have the right to be MAD, HURT,BITTER, SAD and whatever other feelings you are having, just remember though if you know the Lord Jesus as your personal savior it will be a win-win situation.  A miracle could still happen but if it doesn't you will spend eternity in a place where you will NEVER again feel pain or sadness and the word MELANOMA does not exist.  It is truely hard to write this with the tears flowing down my face.  I don't know what it feels like to be in your position as I am the wife of stage IV.  Thank you for all the encouraging post, updates etc... you have been an inspiration to all.

 

Linda/Kentucky

I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me! Phillipians 4:13

JoanR - (9/10/2010 - 10:57pm)

My Dear Sharon, Your bravery is astounding and your continued regard for all of your friends by posting such a heartfelt post is incredibile and speaks of your character.  I have always thought I would get to meet you and had a connection to you as my husband worked in Reno and I was there so often.

I am so pleased you have the services of Hospice and I know you will enbrace the care and love they offer. Take every bit of help you can. I have a feeling we will hear more from you, but if we don't , please know how much you were loved and respected...Take care Joan

himynameiskevin - (9/10/2010 - 11:06pm)

I'm speechless. Your encouraging thoughts and words on these boards have meant so much. And your continuous positive attitude is admirable. I hope the best for you. Sending positive thoughts from San Diego CA, -Kevin

KatyWI - (9/10/2010 - 11:37pm)

Sharon,

We love you.  Thank you for showing how to fight like hell with class, humor, and nearly boundless optimism.  Thanks.

Love,

KatyWI

Just keep going!

Anonymous - (9/10/2010 - 11:47pm)

I don't come here often anymore, but when I do, I look for your posts.  You have been cheerfully supportive in the midst of the worst of times.  There are some people that give confidence and assurance to the rest of us that are fearfully looking for information, and your presence on this board has been a wonderful blessing.  You offer information and tell us how it is with spunk and humor, never seeming to feel sorry for yourself. 

May you have peace, be comfortable, and be assured of love from family and the Lord. 

betsy

JuleFL - (9/10/2010 - 11:54pm)

God Bless you, Sharon.  You have brought so many people so much hope, inspiration and some humor as relief from this horrible disease.  Thank you for your help throughout my husband's fight with the beast.  Hope you two can tip a glass for us when you settle in.

Jule (wife of Cal)

Oh, I have slipped the surly bonds of earth and danced the skies on laughter-silvered wings.........put out my hand and touched the face of God.
John Gillespie Magee, Jr

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