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Last reply 5/28/2013 - 5:24pm
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My father was diagnosed with Stage 4 melanoma in his lungs (very small spots) in early 2012. He was going to Sloan Kettering and was put on ippi.  There wasn't much reaction to it initially so then he then transferred to Yale (closer to home) and was put on PD-1.  Over the course of a year about 85% of the tumors shrunk which was wonderful news.  However in his latest scan 3 spots on his ribs/chest popped up.  The dr is now taking him off of PD-1 and putting him back on ippi.  Has anyone had a similar experience?   

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Last reply 5/17/2013 - 11:49am
Replies by: Shelby - MRF

doesn't anyone look at this board?

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Last reply 5/19/2013 - 10:20pm
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Dear One and all.


The other day I went back to PMH (princess Margaret Hospital) to review a mass of recent tests.  The results are:  TA DA  my tests were all BORING! yes that was the key word.

I am now officially discharged from PMH after 9 years of six month appts.  I am being transferred to another hospital for a new trial clinic for long term followup for melanoma patients not undergoing treatments.   in other words I think it translates to NED after all these years. 

Of  course I still have on going issues with my "earlid" as the black stuff keeps on comiing back, then they biopsy it, and it goes on.  I still have six months checks for the RCC that was removed and will always be watched for any signs of BC coming back.

  BUT those are all at different hospitals.


Those of you on FB know this but the rest  of you??

Love Bonnie


P.S.  JOHN pls write you owe me hahaha.  Barbie Girl you need to answer my questions regarding your new spot on cheek.  You were soooo worried and now I hear nothing....what happened?

Janner, I love you

Love Bonnie

Hang in There

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Last reply 5/9/2013 - 3:07pm
Replies by: BillMFl, Colleen66

As you may or may not know, my brother passed away 2 months ago after a brief, intense battle with melanoma. I have posted here before about my anxiety, depression, and grief. The people on this site have been extraordinarily kind and understanding-- a big ((HUG)) to all of you! I know that my personal journey isn't over-- the void in my life and the hole in my heart will last forever. But I can look back now and see some ways in which I have grown and matured in the last year. I have come to understand some things I didn't understand before. For example...


I looked around my home office the other day and realized that it looks like somebody exploded a bomb in it. Then I looked around at the rest of the house and realized that all the other rooms were almost as bad. "Oh my!" I thought, "How could I let things get this way?!!" Then, like a flashbulb going off, I suddenly realized that I am finally coming out of my stress/grief fog. My house didn't suddenly get messy-- it has been building up for months. But I have been so stressed and so grief-stricken that I either didn't notice or didn't care. Why bother noticing something that I don't have the energy or the desire to fix?
Over the last 2 weeks I have found myself getting back to normal. I'm taking fewer naps. Doing less gardening and more income-producing freelancing. I'm getting dressed in the morning and actually looking FORWARD to getting to work! I'm scrubbing toilets and washing floors rather than listening to talking books and playing computer games all day. 
It's very disconcerting to realize now in hindsight how very bad off I was emotionally. Or maybe I wasn't really "bad off". Maybe I just had to rearrange my priorities for the last 10 months and now my priorities are getting back to normal. At any rate, I am feeling much better and feeling good about getting some important things done. I think I'm going to be OK on my own for now. 
And here, all my faithful companions and supporters, have one more big ((HUG)) from me!! As fellow melanoma sufferer Peter "The Ogler" Ogle said, "Living is hard, but life is good. We are all blessed to be a part of God’s great creation."

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Last reply 4/13/2013 - 10:13pm
Replies by: NYKaren, jag, JuleFL, BillMFl, POW, Anonymous

My brother was diagnosed with Stage IV melanoma last June and passed away from the disease 3 weeks ago. Even though we live in different states, during his illness I broke my neck and did everything I possibly could to get him the best possible care and to ensure that his quality of life was as good as it could be all the way up to the very end. It was, of course, a very stressful time for everyone in the family. I knew that I was stressed and grieving (and I did take care of myself as best I could) but it wasn't until after he had passed and I had done all the necessary paperwork that my stress and grief REALLY hit me. I guess I'm one of those people who is able to push my emotions into a corner of my mind and get on with what needs to get done. I suppose that is a characteristic of all of us caregivers.

From time to time over the last 9 months I have seen a very good grief counselor. She is very experienced in hospice work and she seems to "get" me and how I operate mentally and emotionally. I saw her the other day for the first time since my brother died. I told her that I was doing OK. Yes, I get overwhelmed with sadness sometimes and start to cry some. But it passes quickly and I get back to doing a lot of things that I have let slide over the months (house cleaning, grocery shopping, freelance work, etc.).

By the end of the session she said that she did not think that I was "doing OK".  She said that 3 times during our session I had gotten all choked up and fought back tears. People who are "doing OK" don't behave that way. I replied that I thought that type of behavior was to be expected when one was grieving. I figured that it would take time for the intensity of the feelings to subside. One just had to be patient and get through it. She said, "No". She said that the only way to really get through grief was to talk about it and cry about it for as often and as long as necessary. Rehash the same upsetting memory again and again if necessary until the grief is gone. It doesn't have to be with her; I could relive the memories and express my grief with my spouse or my family or with my close friends. But her advice was to do so in order to experience emotional healing. 

That approach is foreign to me. In my family, we keep our mouths shut about distressing emotions. If you start feeling badly, distract yourself, change the topic of conversation, push the emotions away. Letting it out, rehashing and reliving the stressful past and anticipating the unhappy future, or crying openly in front of other people is shameful and just makes you feel worse. No good can come of it.  

So now I don't know if I should trust this therapist and continue seeing her for periodic "crying sessions" or whether I should do what I have been taught to do by my upbringing and experience-- stiff upper lip the whole thing. Since this is my first experience with losing someone close to me, I can't imagine how to do things differently from the way that comes naturally to me. I can't imagine how emoting all over the place will help me. But maybe I'm just suffering from a lack of imagination here. Maybe I should try it the therapist's way.

This is where I could use your input. In your experience with grieving (either now or in the past), have you allowed yourself to frequently talk about and cry about your loved one and how sad you are that they had to endure the misery of their disease and how much you now miss them now? Do you think that's a healthier approach than just pushing your grief into a corner and getting on with life? Is the emotional end result-- say 6 months or a year later-- any different with the two approaches?

I would appreciate hearing about your experience and insight.  

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Last reply 4/8/2013 - 9:37pm
Replies by: Janner, Kim K, King

I check the board multiple times a day to hear - anything.  Please let me know how my friend is doing now.  Last I read she was asking for her banjo.  I pray for her every night, and I don't pray much.  Please let her continue to heal......  I also hope the IL-2 she did tolerate is kicking mel's butt royally.......



Cancer Sucks Shit Happens Nothing is ever 100% bad, there is a reason and silver lining in everything. Sometimes I need a good light and my glasses to find it though. You can't fix stupid.

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Last reply 1/21/2014 - 12:10am
Replies by: KRob, Anonymous

Does living with melanoma ever get easier. Some of they stories I see here Make mine seem like nothing. But I find my self getting more confussed

every day. And at every Dr visit I'm petrified that the other shoe is gonna drop.  How does one keep it together??

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Dear Dian


Oh for the days of the darkside. we are....this is a time for regeneration and new growth...spring has sprung (at least here) sort of.... but My old fashioned prayers are spilling forth and you simply must pay heed.  Taint your time no way no how.  Who will light Cigar Bob's cigars?  who will be the guitar member of the DFS and who will learn the banjo, except for you?


Get well, Live long and you will prosper.

Love Bonnie Leaheart

Hang in There

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Last reply 3/30/2013 - 9:10pm

is not doing well. Please see Don's post on the mainboard. I'm suddenly and rarely at a loss for words.


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Last reply 3/23/2013 - 1:04am
Replies by: Janner, MarieM, jag

I just posted on the main board (which is so rare for me~) Dian called!! It was so exciting to hear her voice. Did you guys know she has an ACCENT? Who knew???? wink Anyway, she did 13 out of 14 bags, is having some side effects, handling them phenomenally.
She can't post herself because she is having some computer problems there..but she sounds soooo good! It was wonderful to hear from her as I have been thinking of her constantly. So sad there is a whole country in between us.




Love, hugs, Marie

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Last reply 3/18/2013 - 11:01pm
Replies by: King, jag, Janner

Good luck with the IL2...I know you will do well!
Thinking of you every minute and sending you my love.

Love, Greatest big hugs, Marie

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Last reply 3/23/2013 - 7:10am
Replies by: POW, BillMFl, Colleen66, Cielo

Nine months after  his initial diagnosis (stage IV with brain mets at that time) my brother passed away peacefully under hospice care yesterday. 

I posted before about our "last visit" 3 weeks ago (see:  ). Even though he couldn't talk at that time other than to say "yes" or "no", we had a very good visit, we had some fun, and we communicated what needed to be communicated. A week or 10 days ago, he could no longer say even "yes" and"no", he could not get out of bed without assistance, and he started to have trouble swallowing. He still claimed to have no pain (he could nod his head "yes" or "no") but his medical team decided it was time for hospice inpatient care. He was moved from the nursing home to the hospice house last Wednesday.

On Friday morning, I got a call from the hospice nurse that "it was time"-- hospice felt that my brother was near the end. So I threw my clothes in a suticase, jumped in the car, and drove 8 hours from Atlanta to Tampa. I arrived at hospice house at about 9 PM. My brother was semi-comatose, but resting peacefully, not in pain or struggling to breathe. No tubes, no beeping monitors, no glaring lights. Just apparently sleeping. I sat with him for quite a while. I talked to him and reminded him about some crazy St. Patrick's Day stunts he had pulled in the past. I put a cool washcloth on his brow, and cried a little. He woke up a couple of times and seemed to recognize me. At one point, he raised one hand and moved it toward me, which I interpreted as him wanting to give me a hug. So I sat on the edge of the bed an we had a long hug. When it was time for me to leave, I told him to go back to sleep and that I would be back in the morning.  At 8 the next morning, hospice called to tell us Mike had just passed.

It seems strange to say it, and I could never prove it, but I can't help but think that he was waiting for me to get there before he let go. I have been the closest person to him throughout his life (other than his dear, departed Margaret) and I can well imagine him using his incredible will to hang in there long enough for me to see for myself that he was not in distress and for us to both have a loving good-bye.

His gentle, fiercely independent life, his long valiant struggle, and his final passsing are over. I was able to arrange for his favorite priest to say Mass for my brother that same day, and our 91-year-old mother and I were able to attend. This evening, I am hosting an Irish wake (on Saint Patrick's Day, no less!) at his favorite local bar. It's a "Friends" type place where everybody knows Mike's name.  I promised to buy a drink for anyone who can tell a funny story about Mike-- gross exaggerations will be encouraged. My brother was very cooperative in the last few months about settling his affairs, so there really won't be much left for me to do as his executor-- just some forms to fill out and a final interment/memorial service in June. 

Farewell, dear big brother. From now on, I will imagine that you and Margeret are happily and forever sailing away to fascinating new harbors in Heaven.  

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Last reply 3/15/2013 - 8:34am
Replies by: jag

I'm a believer in the least amount of sugar in my diet.  I do supplement at times with Stevia.  Since Stevia is a natural sugar like regular sugar, should I cut it out of my diet too?  I otherwise have a very healthy diet.  I eat gluten free, mostly whole foods.  Very little processed food.  I eat fruits, vegetables,  nuts, seeds, eggs, limited beef, chicken, fish and rice and rice noodles.  I also use supplements to make sure I'm getting all my vitamins and minerals.

Sugar vs. Stevia.

Thank you 



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Last reply 3/12/2013 - 2:44pm
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My head is spinning, anxiety is over the top, depression kicking in.  Spring cleaning all days to give my mind a rest.  Could really use the chat room.



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