At every turn in my diagnosis for stage 4 all the doctors seem overly optimistic. After every scan and biopsy it's just more bad news. Looking at my first X-ray that sounded the alarm bells it seemed clearly horrible. 9 days into ipi plus nivo I feel like the first dose isn't going to do the trick, I know I have 3 more, but I just don't see how this can turn around. I feel destined for all bad news all the time and that I'm not going to be lucky like jimmy carter or whoever. I don't know what I'm asking. I'm just sad and wondering if anyone feels or felt how I do now.